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I can't get over how happy I've been lately, in spite of everything. Sure, mi madre has completely gone of the deep end, my job is getting crazy, and things with certain people are so out of control awful I don't know how they'll ever repair, but the things that are good are GOOD.

Last night, I went over to Christen's house, only to find that she hadn't made it out of bed that day. I sat down to talk to her for a minute, intending on leaving shortly after that, but to my surprise but happiness, after a few minutes she got up, ordered food with me, and came downstairs to hang out. Sara came over, too, and we cooked chicken and potatoes and ate orange box peanut butter thingies and cherries and grapes and watched a few episodes of How I Met Your Mother. And then Ben presented me with a gift; one of his coworkers is in a writing class this summer and had to peer edit someone elses paper. She found it so atrocious she complained to Ben about it at lunch, and let him read it. He was so amused by how awful it was, he photocopied the whole thing to give to me!

I really don't know what it says about me that I am deeply entertained by these things, but nevertheless, I am.

Then Sara and I went back to my house and sat outside in my driveway/walked around my property talking until 2:00 in the morning, and it was wonderful. It's always just so nice to talk to her, and to realize all over again that there is someone who will just understand and be supportive and there for me.

One thing we discussed that has been tugging at my mind all day is, quite simply, how easy it all was. That's the way any relationship, friendship or otherwise, should be, on some level. It should be easy. It shouldn't be tense or dramatic or filled with distrust and half-truths. You shouldn't go into a day you're going to spend with one of your friends thinking, "Okay, they're going to complain about this and get mad at me for this and I'll need to defend myself in these ways, and we're going to bash this person and probably end up arguing over this..." No. That is not the way these things should be. You should be nothing short of PSYCHED at the prospect of hanging out with friends, because it should be fun and easy and right. And I lovelovelove that I still have friendships that are just that.

I am lucky. And I'm thankful for the people in my life who show me on such a regular basis how truly lucky I am to have them.

FRIENDS ONLY.

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